The Teapot's Cabin

Things have beginning to start well (so far) for this new year. My career has finally bear its fruit after years of struggle, years of hard core labour, of ups and downs, of happiness and frustrations, of disappointment and joys, a truly remarkable journey altogether. and indeed, as I take on this new level in my career, I can only look back and see the work of God in all of them. for all that has happened, was meant to happen, all planned and guided by Him, just so to bring me where I am today. Thank God for his blessings and never giving up on this sinner. Amen! And other parts in my life are also shading some light, finally. And when your heart tells you it is right, it will be right. fingers crossed, and toes crossed. Thank you God. Amen!

it's the tenth day of the new year....hmm....how did the new year treated me? one word : confusing. Of late, things havent been turning out the way i expected it to be, or rather how i would wished it would be...and hence, i began to let things go, and just accept things as they come along. as the famous phrase, "go with the flow"..i have stopped expecting things, stopped hoping for things to happen, stopped wishing and dreaming because things are always not how they seemed to be... Things of the past surfaced, things of the future remained a mystery.....such a complicated situation to be in. and recently, i have begin to read a book which got me questioning even more of what i intend to do with my life...of what is my main purpose in life..of what exactly am i looking for...of what is my main goal...and it got me thinking and put me further in doubt..... yes, it does emphasize what i used to believe in, of which i have lose hope after various dissapointments...and ye...

It's the new year! woohoo... hahaha..always my favourite part of each year, so to speak.... it's like a mandatory post that i will try to make it an annual practice :) And so, i just posted on my facebook page that we shall "look forward with hope and not backward with regret. and only look back to see how far we have come and then move on". and indeed, that was what I did, literally. I went to look at my post of early January 2014, of my review for the previous year before i pen down my thoughts here...to see how far i have come..or become... well well well, it has certainly been a long journey, a long and far one i must say....i've achieved quite alot for 2014 of which i am truly proud of where i have headed and heading to this year...though some regrets or set backs, but nonetheless, we are mere humans...we fall, we pick up the pieces then move on.... 2014 has indeed been a wonderful year. i'd encountered many people along the way, made new friends, (...

As I am writing this post, the background music of Sam Smith's I'm Not The Only One seemed perfectly representing my emotions deep inside...well having said that, I have to be honest that i have been at doubts for various things lately and the song is just reflecting exactly and summarizing everything... and that is just what songs are really to me... i noticed that of late, i tend to really pay attention to the lyrics of the songs rather than just the tune and rhythm, and it is very interesting to understand the whole meaning of the song altogether. there is certainly alot of things being said and pen down in a song, and maybe only the writer or music arranger of the song would understand, apart from the singer itself, but when we do take time to listen to the lyrics, it is indeed beautiful.. a song can only contain so much words but it tells a whole story, if only we know how to look at it. enough said.  I know I'm not the only one.

I stopped asking the question "Why?" The simple reason of knowing that I will not be getting the kind of answers that I wished it would be. It is kinda sad when it comes to such a state but then, looking at the bright side of it (yeah, again I'm saying this), I guess it is for the better. As I ponder upon this simple idea of this post, of this topic which suddenly popped up in my head to write about it, a simple three-letter word can weigh so much for the outcome of it is far greater than just three simple alphabets. Looking at it at a different angle altogether, a person who have such questions are often rooted with expectations. True isn't it? We put forth this questions whenever what we wanted is not what we get. What we expect to happen, did not happen the way we expected it to be. What we are hoping for did not came true. All these expectations, be it good or bad, be it a positive outcome or a negative outcome, will always bring you to this three-letter que...

It's the end of the week...oops...rephrase, working week...oops..rephrase again, official working week....all because i never stop working, even though on weekends where i have to stand in....well, that's what working life is all about....work work and more work... well...it was indeed an interesting week altogether....encountered very interesting people and very interesting scenarios daily, each unique in their own way...but somehow, made me question and look back at my own self..... i was given this question: what would you regret if you were on your death bed? such a heavy load question...for which, in fact, i had that thought before and that has resulted in me doing what i am doing today...serving others in the best way i can...apart from writing down my thoughts here as an imprint of what i have been thinking.... yes indeed! that question hit me because that was exactly what change me. and now it got me thinking again, whether what i have change has work out the way ...

We often wait...wait for the right moment...wait for the right person...wait for the right opportunity to come our way....we will just wait and wait and continue waiting....always waiting for the RIGHT thing....but do we ever question what is RIGHT? i admit i have always been waiting.....waiting for the right one...in different aspects of my life ie the right degree, the right career path, the right job, the right position, the right one....but how do we know when we have finally actually gotten the right one all this while? i've been through alot in terms of my career....5 years down the line and seriously, every year seems to be the "one" and im not moving or rather changing anymore...yet, look at me today..5 years in this field, yet 5 different companies...and people still ask me, "so is this the one? or will you continue to change?"...well, having look back at this...i guess people are not really waiting, but rather wanting more...and therefore they WAIT....