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Being Strong

Doing what is right is never easy. To know the cause of right and to be willing to stand up and face it all. It is certainly not easy. The courage within accompanied with the risk that it entails, it is really not an easy thing to do. And it is even worse when you face all of this alone....standing alone, facing the rejection, the insult, the jeers, everything and anything... but you have to do it amidst it all. for the good of the future. for the good of what is to come next...we need to be confident and do it all. nothing to fear, nothing to hide, nothing to hold back.... Easier said than done. It is really not easy. I need to be strong. to face adversity and whatever that comes with it. I can do this. So help me God. Amen.

Moodless

What happens when you lose your will to even carry out your daily routine? that's exactly how i feel... when people keep questioning your ability and capability that all you know of everything that you know becomes doubtful..spoil everything that you have known, all that you have believe in yourself. it tarnishes your dreams, your hopes, your wishes and goals. just about everything seems pointless at this moment...all the arguments, all the fights, the convincing, the confidence... all just seems bleak... nothing to look forward to... this time shall pass..i hope...i really hope...it is not a good feeling but i guess it is necessary. one thing for sure is that i am not losing faith....He surely knows what He is doing and i am putting my whole trust in Him... so help me God. Amen.

Questions

What do you do when you starts questioning everything and anything around you, even to the point of questioning your mere existence? To me, honestly, I find that it is very disturbing if one ever reach this point in their lives, but it is a necessary stage to go through in life...to actually sit and take a moment to reflect that and the meaning of life at its very present condition.... then you start to think...am i happy? am i satisfied with way things are now? do i regret any of my decision(s) that led me to this current state? am i contented with life now? if all these are resulting in negative results, then please do something about it. negativity is the alarm that something is wrong somewhere and it will only lead you further on into the ditch you are burying yourself in. if you see the slightest glitter of hope in the midst of the negativity, fret not, there is still an opportunity to change the table around for a better ending.... Whatever it is, never forget Him. when in ...

Honesty

Being a best friend and being a good friend has its significant difference. I didn't realize it until it hit me in the gut recently. A good friend will be there to give you advice but only a best friend will be there to give you the honest truth, whether you like it or not. A best friend is someone who knows you inside out, and therefore is able to see you better (sometimes) than you can see yourself. And because of that, they are able to tell you the truth about you...but definitely only from their point of view...yes, the truth hurts! nobody say the truth is a bed of roses and smell of perfume. it is bad, hurting and ugly. and a best friend is there to always tell you this, but also bear in mind that they will never leave you alone to discover the real truth or to justify their claim of the truth.  It is definitely not easy to be a best friend because of the fear surrounding you when you need to tell the truth. but you just have to do what you have to do sometimes...and th...

Turning 30

Here it is again...my default birthday post...though one day late this year, but nonetheless, i still would like to say something here... This year is indeed different abit. It marks a milestone for me, turning (big) 30 this year...never would i imagine a few years ago how would my life be turning 30. all these while, 30 is something very huge for me. it marks something big, meaningful, something significant as it signifies me becoming adult, mature i hope, but rather an adult, officially! that was how i always look at, 30... but then, when it did hit me, that i am 30 this year, it seemed like any other day to me. nothing big, nothing hoo-hah about it as how i would picture myself to be....although i always thought that i would be married by the time i am 30..oh well, these stuffs are not for us to be controlled of....  however, one thing that is different this year is that after so many years, i finally have my entire family to celebrate this 30th birthday with me. on t...

LOVE

What is the best feeling in the world? In my personal opinion, the best feeling would be to love and be loved in return. That would be the best and greatest experience any human being can encounter. LOVE. a simple four-letter word but holds a huge meaning in life. Being in love takes a lot of risk. it is in fact a choice. to be in love or out of love, it is a choice. a choice made freely without any reservations. Being in love entails risk as it is mainly the matters of the heart. the heart is place in the core, of which once broken, will be hard to get it back in full anymore... hence, the risk to place that fragile heart into a love relationship, is huge. and therefore, the returns are huge as well. to be loved in return. Pray for the best. God bless us all. Amen.

RIP

i wonder how much can you hate or rather dislike a person, even after the person has passed on? It comes as a shock to me that humans are not so forgiving after all, even after the person has left this world.. why is it so? why can we let the person leave in peace, but still hold on to the anger and frustration within? over the weekend, a friend passed on, shockingly which led to this post now. His cousin whom I texted to send my deepest condolences his loss, showed me how deeply he was hurt, with a deep anger and frustration within against his cousin. It then got me thinking....the saying of the closer a person is to us, the deeper the hurt is when the relationship is broken...and this was clearly shown... It is sad to see such a thing happening, because knowing both of them previously, their relationship was rather close, family bond. but to see it today, that closeness was shattered, is indeed a sad thing.. so much so that we would want to help mend this relationship, but it is...