The Teapot's Cabin

Came across a status update on FB this morning, about a lady being asked to give up what she loves most during the season of Lent. She decided to give up her husband and her kids.  To some it may be a joke. but to me personally, i feel that it is really sweet and self-giving of her. to give up something or someone that you love most is indeed the hardest thing to do. and to be able to do that, that is in fact to me, a huge sacrifice.  and thus, i have been thinking of what i would do differently this Lent. and i thought to myself, that i would do the same. every Lent i would try to do something special, or something extraordinary. i've started with abstaining for the entire season, and adding on to that, i offered a pray to a different person for the entire season..and this year, i decided to add on by giving up on the person i care the most.  So help me God. Amen. 

New year, new layout...and i am hoping to say a new beginning too..... oh well, things have been really really hard on me lately, especially when it comes to my career. Challenges after challenges which leaves me really really beat...and at my lowest end. never have i felt so helpless that even thinking of it makes my stomach turn... even my health and my routine lifestyle was and is affected...i don't sleep well, and kept thinking of work work and more work. even during an off-day, all i can do is to work.... i really have no life, do i? sad it is, to see what i have become....honestly.... its been 8 years since i took this career journey..to be where i am today, to be doing what i am doing today....it has been hard hard work... and to be going through the past few days, really kept me thinking back of the struggles i have to put up with now! and all the while, i always think that things will be easier as the years go by, with the experience and the vast people i worked with.....

Its the 18th day into the new year....anything change? i can proudly say YES! I have made a pledge to my own self that the past will remain as the past and not to dwell anymore in it. Whatever that happened over the years or recent years, it happened. nothing can be done to undo it anymore...and most importantly, learn from it and move on. No point keep bringing it up and thinking about it, regretting. Life goes on. Pick yourself  up and move on...life has more to offer. Just trust everything unto Him. He knows what is best. Amen.

Happy New Year 2017! This has always been my annual routine..to sum up the past year of what it has been.... one word for 2016; Challenging 2016 has been a really challenging year for me. so much has happened throughout the 365 days. It has been a roller coaster ride for me. So many unexpected things, the bad and the ugly. Relationships lose and new relationship formed, friends lose and new friends found, a new job, and a whole new level of life itself.  2016 has been a year of change for me. personally. mentally and emotionally, and also socially. things happened which changed me a lot, internally, which i hope is for the better. I can only hope and pray that all that has happened is really part of His plan. I truly trust in His plan and allow Him to work on me. Praying for a smooth flowing year ahead. Come what may. God help me. Amen. 

Two more days to make 2016 great...two more chances to make 2016 memorable in all its glory... what am i anticipating for the next two days? oh well, honestly, nothing much...just hoping things are smooth flowing, nothing extraordinary that will shock the life out of me. 2016 thus far has been interesting in so many ways. i don't even know where to start but for all that has happened, i believe that everything happens for a reason. whatever reason it may be, i trust it has been part of His master plan for me. i have since stop questioning all that is happening and just letting go, trusting in His providence. 2 more days to make 2016 great. So help me God.Amen

Doing what is right is never easy. To know the cause of right and to be willing to stand up and face it all. It is certainly not easy. The courage within accompanied with the risk that it entails, it is really not an easy thing to do. And it is even worse when you face all of this alone....standing alone, facing the rejection, the insult, the jeers, everything and anything... but you have to do it amidst it all. for the good of the future. for the good of what is to come next...we need to be confident and do it all. nothing to fear, nothing to hide, nothing to hold back.... Easier said than done. It is really not easy. I need to be strong. to face adversity and whatever that comes with it. I can do this. So help me God. Amen.

What happens when you lose your will to even carry out your daily routine? that's exactly how i feel... when people keep questioning your ability and capability that all you know of everything that you know becomes doubtful..spoil everything that you have known, all that you have believe in yourself. it tarnishes your dreams, your hopes, your wishes and goals. just about everything seems pointless at this moment...all the arguments, all the fights, the convincing, the confidence... all just seems bleak... nothing to look forward to... this time shall pass..i hope...i really hope...it is not a good feeling but i guess it is necessary. one thing for sure is that i am not losing faith....He surely knows what He is doing and i am putting my whole trust in Him... so help me God. Amen.