The Teapot's Cabin

Although  it's been a while since I last blog about my youcat journey,  (I will...soon) but there is something which I would like to share at this moment... Well, I gt to admit n acknowledge that there has been changes in me in terms of my religion or rather, my faith. I became more n more attached to the church nowadays. It does at some point,  feel very stressful n tiring, but at the end of it all..there is always contentment. I realize there has been growth in me..im trusting more on faith than I was before this, I begin to look n find jesus in every person I meet and it is truly a wonderful experience altogether. For example, even when I get so angry at someone, I rather take a deep breath and offer up my anger rather than reacting as per the norm. Evrythng seemed to make more sense nowadays. I began to value my faith more n more. Growing deeper into my relationship with god than I have ever been before. It is seriously like a life changing journey which is still ...

disappointments after disappointments... unappreciated....haiz....is life really that hard to get on by? is this all just a challenge that happens to have greater rewards? i wonder..i seriously wonder.. often times, i fall and i will always try my very best to pick myself up and fight the fight again.. but now, its like the final fall...the third fall and now i await my persecution.. I fall, God, I really fall...and this time i really do not know whether i have the strength and will to go on..it is so so demotivating, so so disheartening when everyone is just putting you down just so that they can show their superiority.. its just so sad to see that people are just misusing you for your knowledge and just a mere puppet in their whole showcase...and with the renewed courage that i gained over the couple of months, this particular fall seemed to surpass everything.. i really felt as if a sword has pierced through my soul..and indeed, the tongue is mightier than the sword.. w...