The Teapot's Cabin

the past is past...you will always try to forget it, but somehow, when the time is "right", it will come back to haunt...just like that! and memories start flooding in again.. and my life has now started to stabilize...and now you want to bring me back to what i am trying hard to forget and let go.....i am thankful for making me who i am today, making me stronger as a person and making me appreciate life even more.... this is going to be a more interesting ride than the past, but i would not want to be afraid anymore. although i doubt my strength, but i know i can do it with His help...so help me God

being thanksgiving day, i have many to thank for up to now...first and foremost, thank GOD for creating life itself, allowing me to experience what life is all about...thank my parents for having me into their lives, without them, there would not be me..thank my other family members who have been through thick and thin with me, only you all know what its like to be who we are today!...thank you to all my friends who have known me in one way or another, even though we have not been in contact for ages, it was great knowing you all for one part of my life..for those friends who have been close to me, thanks for your effort and understanding and patience when dealing with me....to my 'enemies', thank you to you all too for allowing me to see the other side of myself which i may not have realised if you have not push me to my limits...THANKS! =)

i just felt like blogging but didnt know what to actually write about....well guess because there were just so many things in my head at the moment; work, holiday, work, friends, family,work, work..and all that is out is all about work.. oh no..have i became a workaholic? well, i have to admit that i am..nothing seems to revolve around me that much apart from work. i love what i am doing, i admit, and that is what pushes me through everyday, though the amount of stress and burden it comes with it....apart from work, what is there left of me? i have nothing much to look forward to most of the time..sounds pathetic isnt it? guess that work has kill most part of me, and im letting myself being murdered by it...wonder when does this killing spree ends?...i wonder

guessed that all i wanted was to get back what i have given thus far...is it so hard? why has all these be so controversial? if only it was just so simple, things would have been so much easier without the need to think of the consequences of it all... haiz...guess the time is not right again..but when will it be?

oh no...its happening again....guess that i just want to feel the same way i did last time.. gosh..is it so hard to get the right one? must i go through a series of wrong ones before the right one comes along?...gosh.................when will that be? i wonder

its been a month since i last blogged....so much to say but so little time to write them all down... my mind was flooded with thoughts and thought of various things, issues after issues surfaced, i was drowning with not much air to breath..i can just hang on with whatever that was left of me... but thankfully, with much faith and prayer, i survived. the month of october! a month of extensive drama everywhere, every part of my life..it was just one whole dramatic month, and i now lived to look back and blessed for having survive it.... well, things aren't going any better rapidly, but rather things are slowly changing for the better....guess i have rolled down hill in october, and landed myself in the lake, drowning ut barely surviving...but i have learn to float, and surfaced...and now slowly climbing the hill once more...it is tough, of course, but im never giving up till i reach the peak.. now will know if i reach the peak? i hope i dont..because if i know that i reached the peak