unworthy

It's been three months since my last post.... so fast time flies.....


Well, i wouldn't want to speak about what happened over the past three months.. but rather speak something very randomly that is bonggling the mind..


How often do we do our best in whatever tasks that is given, but the credit still goes to someone else? as much as we choose to ignore it, the dust is never easy to be bitten... the effort and time to help, and yet, those who were suppose to do it, choose to ignore it, while i become the scape goat for all the nonsense that wasn't even mine in the first place. it is really unfairness to its maxmum.


and as much as it is against my life principle to be brought down so easily, but i just could not do much, knowing that i am legally bound to what is being contracted to me.. haizzz..life and all its obstacles... as much as i hope to persevere through all these, as much as i hope to leave as well...


So much that i have gone through the past 9 years, and never once do i have to face such a hurtful experience down to my core.. i just hope to survive the remaining 611 days and get out alive. Its not worth my effort anymore.


So help me God. Amen.