Too much

one after another........life has been full of surprises...when i say surprises, i don't meant the nice, sweet and pretty wans, but those ugly, unexpected and full of burden........gosh oh gosh.........
people think im just so free, sitting around, nothing to do isit???? goodness gracious...i have a life too, i have many things to do as well.. so easy for people to just pass judgement without knowing the real truth....do you think it is a nice thing to do? simply assume things just because i did not response to anything? i am also trying my best to solve things, settle things, bring things back to the way it used to be...however, i can't do this all alone, although i have been all this while...and the worse thing is when people just hope that i do it all again, without realising how much burden and responsibility that i also have other than this.......i can't do this all alone again, without support from those who are in this as well...things will not work out if we just wait for one another, and don't just wait for me just because im in-charge of this...you all are in this together, so we are all together as a team....we should work this out together...please understand my situation.....i am breaking very soon...with the past two weeks filled with so much 'surprises', i can't bear to handle any more 'surprises' anymore...my heart just can't take it anymore....there is just too much to bear.............................................