There is a reason for everything
Contemplation..contemplation and contemplation....i've been in very deep thoughts for the past few weeks...and maybe that's why, those of you who have seen me lately or spoken to me lately, can notice that i am being more quiet than usual (that if you notice la..haha)...
looking back at my previous post, (for which i wrote just a few days before i turned a year older), God indeed worked mysteriously...when i was posting that, i had so much going on within me..in my head, my heart...all over...a mess, i shall say...questioning His will for me..but then, when my birthday came....indeed all was washed away..i seriously felt LOVE...not love love as in the boy-girl...but just the plain feeling of love..from families and friends...no matter whether it was just a short simple message over facebook, but nonetheless...i felt the love...and i guess, that is all that matters. Him trying to tell me that whatever i have been doing, it is right, no matter how wrong at times i may feel about it..and the messages and wishes i received are just the testimonials to what has been done (directly or indirectly by me)......and besides, having the simple affirmation from people around you for a job well done is really a motivation to go on....but maybe for a while before the whole cycle comes round again.... for which leads to this current post as i am typing it down in words....
LOL....how funny life is right? the minute you are high and happy, you forgot all that is bad and ugly which were accompaniments of life too......we often fail to see that the reason we are happy or excited is because these bad and ugly ones were there to blind us from the start. only when we decided to turn away from all these, we start to see the happy and excited part...when in fact, at all times, it was there...just hidden from our view...Deep? hahaha...well take your time to digest it....just spilling my brain juices which are overflowing (right now)....
yeah...have been contemplating for a while lately...people always seemed to see me as a happy person..happy with whatever i have, happy with where i am, happy with who i am,...but am i really that happy? what defines "happy" for people may not be my definition of "happy"....for which i always like to say this : i am always looking "happy" everywhere i am because i feel the need to infect people with happiness and positivity although deep inside, you feel like crap! i always believe in choice...why choose to sulk and be depress in front of others? what are you expecting from them? a sympathy? an empathy? why want to make a depressing situation more depressing when instead, you may just suck it in, smile and appear happy (although it is a shipwrecked within), and people will just return that same favour to you? wouldnt that be better? hahaha...i know, easier said than done....in fact, i don't practice it also...because it is just so difficult...well, im just as human as anyone is...but i do try...i dont like to ponder in depression just because it is depressing, but rather...always try to look at the bright side of things...
there is always a reason for everything. good ones, bad ones, ugly ones, etc....no matter how bad a situation is, there is always a reason for it to happen, for us to experience it...we may not always see the effect rightaway, but when we do (after a while) you will understand the whole picture altogether....
haha...look at my brain and how these words flow....i started to write this post with a different intention and look at what it had turned out to be...guess, it was for a reason and just let the original intention be left for another day...if it is meant to be blogged anyway..lol...
there is a reason for everything. so help me God. Amen.
looking back at my previous post, (for which i wrote just a few days before i turned a year older), God indeed worked mysteriously...when i was posting that, i had so much going on within me..in my head, my heart...all over...a mess, i shall say...questioning His will for me..but then, when my birthday came....indeed all was washed away..i seriously felt LOVE...not love love as in the boy-girl...but just the plain feeling of love..from families and friends...no matter whether it was just a short simple message over facebook, but nonetheless...i felt the love...and i guess, that is all that matters. Him trying to tell me that whatever i have been doing, it is right, no matter how wrong at times i may feel about it..and the messages and wishes i received are just the testimonials to what has been done (directly or indirectly by me)......and besides, having the simple affirmation from people around you for a job well done is really a motivation to go on....but maybe for a while before the whole cycle comes round again.... for which leads to this current post as i am typing it down in words....
LOL....how funny life is right? the minute you are high and happy, you forgot all that is bad and ugly which were accompaniments of life too......we often fail to see that the reason we are happy or excited is because these bad and ugly ones were there to blind us from the start. only when we decided to turn away from all these, we start to see the happy and excited part...when in fact, at all times, it was there...just hidden from our view...Deep? hahaha...well take your time to digest it....just spilling my brain juices which are overflowing (right now)....
yeah...have been contemplating for a while lately...people always seemed to see me as a happy person..happy with whatever i have, happy with where i am, happy with who i am,...but am i really that happy? what defines "happy" for people may not be my definition of "happy"....for which i always like to say this : i am always looking "happy" everywhere i am because i feel the need to infect people with happiness and positivity although deep inside, you feel like crap! i always believe in choice...why choose to sulk and be depress in front of others? what are you expecting from them? a sympathy? an empathy? why want to make a depressing situation more depressing when instead, you may just suck it in, smile and appear happy (although it is a shipwrecked within), and people will just return that same favour to you? wouldnt that be better? hahaha...i know, easier said than done....in fact, i don't practice it also...because it is just so difficult...well, im just as human as anyone is...but i do try...i dont like to ponder in depression just because it is depressing, but rather...always try to look at the bright side of things...
there is always a reason for everything. good ones, bad ones, ugly ones, etc....no matter how bad a situation is, there is always a reason for it to happen, for us to experience it...we may not always see the effect rightaway, but when we do (after a while) you will understand the whole picture altogether....
haha...look at my brain and how these words flow....i started to write this post with a different intention and look at what it had turned out to be...guess, it was for a reason and just let the original intention be left for another day...if it is meant to be blogged anyway..lol...
there is a reason for everything. so help me God. Amen.
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