The Teapot's Cabin

I wonder if people have such wonder in their head, but I often do..I often wonder "do I really need to speak up or just stay silence like the rest for the fear of misjudgement?" U see, various occasions of speaking out and speaking up ended up in negative impressions and that always lead me to think that I have done something so wrong to actualy have the courage to do that... but then again, if I dont speak, then people assumed I agree with them which at so many times, I don't!  And that is a whole confusion and mind-bothering issue for me.. I know, whenever I am courageous enough (mind u, this is a new found trait in me for which I stand proud of) to speak out, I always think that people must be so sick of me talking all the time or rather always wanting to find fault with others..but little do they know that all I am intending to is just to communicate? I have tried many ways to tackle things around me; I have been vocal, I have been very expressive in written words...

It has been a unique life journey i shall say for me for the past couple of months, in terms of religion or precisely, in my faith. Looking back at my own life, there is really a significant difference which is for the better (i think) and it has really made me who i am today. One thing for sure, there is like a renewed faith within which i am really very thankful for..indeed, God works mysteriously in everyone if only we allow him to take control of our lives..everything happens for a reason and so does my participation in the YouCat studies.. It's been around 4months plus and it has turned into something which i look forward to each weekend. Its a whole different thing for me when it first started (i admit) because it takes part of my Saturdays away and it involves a whole lot of commitment which i really doubt it, but now it has been a very joyful experience. yup, it's been a while since i blog about my experience in the YouCat as what i have been intended to do....but nev...

Lately things have really been somewhat "odd" whereby things have been the total opposite of what I expected them to be..it's a good thing somewhat but its not healthy, I shall say...the worse is yet to cone. But then again,  I always question myself,  "why are we always anticipating for the worse till we often choose to nt see what is lying in front of us at this very point in our respective lives?"  Weird right...when things r going smoothly but somehow we choose to be anxious for the worse... true n important that we have to be prepared but don't la until to the extend that we jeopardize our present.. Bt then, thats hw life is.the reality of it..that is the reason why I can become so "happy go lucky" as people often categorise me as that just for the fact that I don't seemed worried at all... haha.. well, in my personal defence, lets just say that I got tired of worrying about things that I began to take things easier than what I do previo...

I finally understand something today..after months of thinking and analyzing, I finally came to a conclusion after making some observations which finally proves my theory/hypothesis. . Hahaha...call me stupid but that's just reality. I find it very disturbing when people just choose to be blind to the situation that is surrounding them although knowing that something can always be made right to the wrongs that they are in now. They have so much fear in them that hinders them for growth.. is ignorant really a bliss to them? But I guess it is for them since to them nothing will be bad for them as long as they do what they are asked to do (note the difference between what they are suppose to do) even though it is wrong... And often enough, I try in my own subtle ways to help these ppl realize the effects of their mindset and thinking or rather actions, but often times I get the negative feedback. And I finally came to realize that today....they just dont want to bother. Even when ...