The Teapot's Cabin

its been a while since i last posted...well, been busy with work...or maybe just making myself busy...hahhaa...whatever it was, it has been a whirlwind journey of late.. it got me thinking suddenly...to realize what we do to ourselves to deny ourselves from the reality in front of us.. confused? think about it. how often we drown ourselves in our own comfort zone such as in our work (because we are so used to doing what we are doing) or going to eat at places which we are so familiar with daily or doing the same routinely thing daily i.e. take the same route for our morning/evening brisk walk. are we happy doing these things and continue staying in our comfort zones? are you daring enough to get out of it and try new things? are you willing to put your work away just to have a good night out? are you willing to take a different pathway on your morning/evening brisk walk or maybe change it into a run instead? think about it. we are so often afraid of change. for the sim...

Lately things have got me thinking and reflecting...yes..again...i just like doing this...its like a habit.. from time to time i just sit and think... sometimes i am also lost in my own thoughts.. oh well, lately with the two suicidal cases of the famous icons; (God bless their souls: Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain)..it got me thinking even more.. what if i end up being like that one day? For Kate Spade, i may not know much about her, just know her brand. But knowing me knowing my food, i know Anthony Bourdain. and i can relate so much to him. how much he likes travelling, and food, and meeting new people, not afraid to try new things...that's just how similar i am too.. hence, i can relate so much to his persona, and maybe even, can also feel what he felt, till he decided to take his own life..it is sad to hear about it. really. it gave me a sense that i can be like that too. one day. who knows. Life which we always see may not be what we always thought it is or would be....

Could it be real? after all that has happened to me, i decided to give it another shot and i am wondering now if it is all real, because honestly, it is very surreal...it seemed so perfect, for now... oh well...yet to know..only time will tell... Will keep you all posted. So help me God. Amen.

i write about my work previously, and in most of my few posts too...so obviously that work has taken centre stage to me these past months. or rather i drown myself in my work because of the effect my work has on myself and the people i work with. it gives me a certain contentment which is the driving force for me to strive better with each day, though it never gets easier but tougher everytime. as much as contented i am with work, i find it sad and dissapointed to a certain aspect with my life as i fail to share these feeling with those in the similar field as me. as much as i would want others to be in the same state of mind as me when it comes to the work i am doing, it sadden me when i heard the other person, whom i have tried to groom decided to call it quits on this. maybe it is because the lack of experience and the inferiority that she feels when it comes to this nature of the work.. that brings me to the reason i am blogging today. i think i have t...

Its been a while since I last blogged..and if those who have been following me,  will know the low note of my last post...indeed..it has been very difficult, to this very day. something which really shattered me.. but nonetheless, i choose to see the positive side.. because it has led me to find a distraction through my work.. Things are really overwhelming lately at work. its been two months since i took over an additional role at work, and things are still unstable, but looking on the bright side.. and with me, now writing this in a different country (not revealing where, but not in Malaysia), gave me a sense of "i finally did it"... i am finally living the dream. something which i have always wanted since, i think 4 years ago, a career which i have always eyed since then. Things is not easy, surely. nothing in life is, but it just proves that nothing is impossible if we put our heart in it and not giving up on it... As much as my personal life is in shambles, i am ha...

It is only when you are down in the dumps that you begin to see the importance of having someone with you, to talk to, to share with ups and downs, just to be there. The past one month taught me the toughest lesson in life, to date (i really do hope no more such similar experience in store for me in the future). I was naive and vulnerable enough to succumb to the "damage" that i was dragged into. In fact, after having the realization of the entire situation and the shit that I was in, I was doubtful if I can stand up and get out of it to just live. The emotional and mental stress was seriously not something that i could even put into words. It was just a rough ride altogether, and to be here now typing this post, is just something i can be grateful for, that i can go through this ugly episode of my life. Don't ask me what happened. just take my word for it that it was the shittiest shit I ever encountered. To this very day, i still blame myself for being so blunt,...

Things always happen unexpectedly...or rather things happen when you least expected it. Well, life did changed tremendously for me lately..in various aspects i.e. career and relationships. As much as we always strive for the best, we often forget that people are also watching us as we do the best in our work and hence, bigger responsibility are thrown to us. I sometimes contemplate why the heck do i get so much work while my peers do not..but i choose to see it positively, that i did something right and thus was trusted with bigger responsibilities because people acknowledge my abilities and capabilities in handling them. I choose to see it as a compliment and a challenge to my capabilities. That's just how life is. never allowing us the benefit of expectaton because things will never ever happen as how we expected. as you reach this point, im sure you are hoping to read about what i wrote above; relationships. Well, let's just keep that for another post. In the mea...