The Teapot's Cabin

I thought the year would end smoothly...however a news i received this evening shattered every dream i had, every wish i had, every hopes i had...i lose someone so dear to me this very evening, someone so close to me.... i lose my dog this evening...his battle with his sickness was lost...i was shock with the news...everyone knew that he is getting old, and is frequently getting his seizure lately, but none of us expected him to leave us so fast..... needless to say, i cried and cried and cried so much..my eldest sis called me, we both wept on the phone, my second sis called me, we both wept on the phone too, i called my mum, and we both wept together on the phone too....i wept too; a whole box of tissue to be precise (really, not bluffing, i still keep the empty box if u wan proof).....he has been part of the family for 10 years, he was so close to be celebrating his 11 birthday, just 11 days away...but i guess, his time is up my mum told me of how he struggled in the morning from a s...

Time just flies so fast....a month's semester break just came and went, just like that with a snap of the finger.....a month's break it was, but it never was a break for me...things were just as it is, everyday was filled with work, work and more work....back and forth i travelled to the lab, an hour and a half journey, left the house before the sun rises and went back home after the sun sets....as my sister told me, "you are more busy than those who are working"....hahahaha....that is true...weekends were never a break either, everyday was being used up to catch up on my work, rushing for datelines which are closer and closer each day.....it is as tiring as it sounds...apart from the work load, the tension and pressure was also a contributing factor that affected me in various ways...i was almost at the verge of quitting it all, just giving up everything...however, something within me refuses to let go, something kept me hanging on..and i sure know that He has someth...

It was a celebration indeed...the birthday of Jesus...a day in which the whole world knows it as Christmas! a day of giving and receiving presents, a day filled with sales here and there...but most importantly, a day to be together with our loved ones to celebrate the coming of our saviour into this world.... Christmas is just the best time of the year....an occasion which i always look forward to every year..more for the presents, frankly...hahaha..but that was years ago....however, as i grew up i began to realize that its not just merely the presents i was looking forward to, its more of the togetherness that i really really anticipate...to be together with our loved ones; our families.. As what i have blogged a few days ago, how i dreaded the whole thing for the first time this year....i guess it actually turned out to be something good for me..because of those feelings that i had a few weeks earlier, i tend to cherish and treasure this year's Christmas even more...when the day...

A BLESSED CHRISTMAS TO ALL im so happy today......things turned for the better....will be back to blog......Blessed to God Most High HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS

i am sitting right now in front of the christmas tree at home and wondering.....what is christmas to me this year? what are the things that cause me to look forward to it, this very year?? i used to have the answers to these questions....but sadly, this year...i have none! and i have to admit it, that it is a 'sad case' if one does not have the mood to celebrate it, the 'christmas mood' to be precise.... yes, christmas is always the time to celebrate the birth of our Saviour, our Master, our King, our Friend...and it is certainly the best time to be with our loved ones, our families especially...its a time of giving and receiving, whether its presents or just a simple greeting of 'Merry Christmas'.. its a time to share and spread the joy with one another...its a time of welcoming something precious or rather a new beginning... but sad to say, i can't feel the spirit of christmas this year....there isn't much that i look forward to this year, though im e...

how can things go further wrong? even a short break doesnt help much....things just kept bugging and bugging me continuously....anxiety, stress, tension, pressure, regrets....and to top it all, i've now fallen sick...what a 'good' way to end the year......gosh :-S

"Love is not finding someone to live with , It's finding someone you can't live without. " - Fr. Alvin - This was a quote from Fr. Alvin's homily during today's sunset mass, and it captured me right on the spot. It is such a beautiful quote and it certainly brings a very deep meaning altogether. and in true life, undeniable, it is not easy to find someone who you can't live without...it takes commitment, connection, chemistry and most importantly, love. well, after mass...(maybe its the Holy Spirit's work), we headed for a movie, Twilight it was really a wonderful movie that shows how great love is..it really pictures the true meaning of love, just like the quote mentioned above..and the story is just being told in such a different but beautiful manner...as what is written in the poster, "when you can live forever. what do you live for?" a question worth pondering.... hmm.....what would i actually do then?? will i take back or change anythin...

exhaution. tiredness.....oh my goodness...lately, my days has been so filled up with 'work' and 'travelling'.. its really so tired to just be waiting for ...jeng jeng jeng..... The Bus! though it is so, but i cant deny the fact that it is very convenient to travel here and there, around the city...and everyday has been an interesting journey, filled with the diversity of people i meet on the bus, observing their actions and the way they comunicate...there is always a story to tell of my journey on this particular vehicle...however so, im really really physically exhauted to blog about it now.....~faint~

i've learnt in one of my classes that it is not encouraging and even not healthy to keep our feelings and problem to ourself..because in long term, it may have an effect on our health and our mind too...which at first i regard it as a 'myth' or just something which i would discard and disagree why so?? because that's how i've been living my life...keeping everything to myself'; my anger, my dissapointments, my frustrations, my irritations,etc....just about everything..except for the positive ones which i would be happy to share with others....but that's just me...and certainly, it doesn't really bother me that much, although at some point, it does is a painful pill to swallow.. however, lately, i would want to agree with what i learnt earlier. the pressure and stress that i have been through lately is seriously something that i could not handle anymore. too much anxiety and lack of understanding is seriously eating me inside out and it was really costin...