The Teapot's Cabin

hmmm.............. feeling bad for doing things which some are unable to do feeling bad for buying things which some can't afford to feeling bad for taking things which we don't own it feeling bad for owning things which we don't deserve to hmmm.....sigh...................hmmm.... feeling bad to let people down feeling bad for making people misunderstood me feeling bad for not allowing people to understand the real situation feeling bad for unable to put things right hmmm......sigh........sigh.....sigh......hmmmm.... its so hard at times to let people understand the real situation that is happening...but i gues its the normal human habit and nature, to just see things in one dimension and ignoring the other dimension(s) when in fact, the other dimension(s) is what make a difference overall..(sounds complicated ha?...hehe).....well, its sometimes pretty bad when people are just expecting something out of you, or expecting you to do something, but somehow due to some obli...

Its been almost a week since Easter Sunday....well...it was an indeed whole different experience for me this year...a more meaningful triduum i shall say....i had my own experience of 'the' triduum... Good Friday this year would be a memorable one for me...a day when everything just finished or just ended....we are always reminded on how Jesus' loses his life through the crucifix, the same way, i was also reminded of the ends of my undergraduate studies by losing something important to me as well.... the pain was definitely there, the memories of it...just as how Jesus endured his pain, i was motivated to do the same (sounds superficial? well, thats how i really felt..).the pain was unbearable at first..weeping, questioning, recalling back..but somehow it all 'vanished' right after the service....this made me believe (sorry, to say this) and strongly believe, that when Jesus' died, he realy saved us all...He came so that we may lived, He died to save us all, He ...

YAY...im finally back into the blogging world....what kept me away for so long, some may ask..well i was busy with my final year project, and now i am proud to announce that it is DONE! i finally handed it up today....WOOHOO!!! YIPPEE!! HIP HIP HOORAY! Hip Hip Hooray! hiP hiP HOOOORAY!!! hahaaha....can feel the happiness and sense of relief?? well, pictures say it all... YAY!! the final product! Not that thick la..hehe..ok ok lah... Boo....I can see you! hahaha Creepy ah? hahaha...small little finger there...failed attempt la...aiks Proud owner of the little blue book! Gleaming with joy =) WOW! what a relief! One whole year of hard work, sweat, tears, joy, laughter, fun, stress, tension, pressure, etc etc...so many things that happened during the whole period...but, its all worth it la....though kena marah here n there so many times, kena tangkap a few times, kena kutuk sometimes...hahaha....sounds so kesian like that, but those were the things that make life much more interesting and...

wow wow wow....2 months since i last blogged....what a long time ago...hahaha..but then, time flies so quick that you wouldnt even have the time to sit and realized what is gone, or what is happening, or even worrying of what is to come....... hmm....2 months duration.....many things happened, many things ended, many things started as well....will blog bout it soon...hehe...when the 'spirit-of-blogging' comes back into me...lolz all in all....life so far has been kind to me, i supposed...though its normal to be pressurized with studies..but i hope to be able to pull through for these 2 months remaining before i finally gain my 'freedom'......

Mixed feelings ...that's how i have been feeling lately..things came and go...causing perturbation to the mind...confusion, distraction, unsure of what to do...or even worse, dont know how to feel; dont know how to even portray the right emotions..(hahaha this brings back memories of what i learnt in my personality class....) things have been happening around me, thankfully, not directly to me lah...but somehow, indirectly, it affected me to a certain extend as well Some of my friends were in trouble lately, big trouble i shall say...i feel so bad for them, but somehow i just can't help much, because there is nothing much that i can help to solve it....all i can do is just to lend my ear to them, to be a platform for them to let things out of their shell...because speaking from experience, it is certainly very hard to just keep everything to oneself...slowly it will cause the body and mind to rot...hehe...too exaggerating pulak...hahahahaha .. anyhow, it was a lesson not just f...

The past few days and weeks have been crazy....im not exaggerating, but it was really crazy..if not for my spinal cords, i would have just drop down anytime and anywhere.......it was full of running around, settling this, settling that, making sure things are alright...phew....i was at a dead end...but thankfully, i am happy to say that i am now still able to stand up till this very day, because all i did was to surrender everything to Him...and indeed He works in mysterious ways.. i was so frustrated and disapointed with everything that was taking place..everything...from the people(s) itself down to the nitty-critty work that i was doing.... I was even at a point of just running away, escaping from everything that is happening and run off to a place all alone..i really wanted a break and a vacation from everything...things have been coming and coming, never going and going.it was really a difficult, tough and pressuring situation....phew...what a life! but thankfully, i managed to ge...

That's what we just love doing.... to wait ...wait for what? no one really knows the answer...that's what we always do...we wait and wait ; wait for a person to take charge, wait for a person to step up and take responsibility, wait for a person to do all the work, wait wait and more waiting........ why the heck must we just wait ? can't we just step up and take hold of whatever we were suppose to do..no need to wait for orders, wait for instructions, wait till the time is right (which no one knows when..just a lame excuse).....we can wait for things, but do we ever wonder : "does time wait for us?" sorry man, time doesn't wait for anybody nor anything....you can wait your whole life for something, in the end you will just end up like the picture above; all 'wrinkly' and 'boney'...and what to do when that happens? we still wait , but this time, we wait for our death....see, our whole lives revolve around these four letters : WAIT when wil...

one after another........life has been full of surprises...when i say surprises, i don't meant the nice, sweet and pretty wans, but those ugly, unexpected and full of burden........gosh oh gosh......... people think im just so free, sitting around, nothing to do isit???? goodness gracious...i have a life too, i have many things to do as well.. so easy for people to just pass judgement without knowing the real truth....do you think it is a nice thing to do? simply assume things just because i did not response to anything? i am also trying my best to solve things, settle things, bring things back to the way it used to be...however, i can't do this all alone, although i have been all this while...and the worse thing is when people just hope that i do it all again, without realising how much burden and responsibility that i also have other than this.......i can't do this all alone again, without support from those who are in this as well...things will not work out if we just wa...

Passion versus Risk. Should i follow my passion and dare to take the risk? or should i just let go my passion to avoid from the risk that comes with it?? what a difficult decision to make.....such a simple issue, yet, the burden and effect that comes with it is so huge that i am doubting whether i can handle it myself.... Passion. Such a nice word (hahaha...i know some may thing i am crazy for saying so...laugh all you want). Its not something new, however it is not easy to find something that we are really passionate about...we like alot of things, be it a material, a person or just simply an action...however, of so many things that we like, how many are those that we are really passionate about it? we human beings have a very bad habit of following . we just love to follow other people, precisely follow the majority...what do majority people do, we follow; what do majority people wear, we follow; how do majority people act, we follow; we just love to follow, follow and follow .....t...

A new year....hahaha abit lapuk la since its already the 2nd week of the new year....guess its really so long since i last blogged. anyhow, still not late yet to wish all out there a very HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 well....two weeks into the new year, and things hasn't been all smooth flowing, its normal right...but things at uni were just so crazy..last minute scrapping-off for a particular class, running around to clear matters, settling things here and there...and paling teruk is sudenly i realize that i was put in-charge of the whole situation...phew...what a responsibility and task to handle.....its like the whole class's hope and future was in my hands.....what a week man!!! but as my friend told me, this situation really showed me who is the want who is really serious about things, who can be trusted and reliable on (for the record, im not talking bout myself here ok...hehe).....the phrase "empty vessels make the loudest noise" was clearly seen in this situation....pe...