The Teapot's Cabin

Being away from work for one whole week proofs to be disastrous after all...all fears were confirmed when i step into the office today.. fine, you may think im bragging here but think whatever u want, i do not give a damn anymore....i have always been worrying so much of other ppl's thoughts about me that i am the one who suffers in the end.... gone are those days, Moira! it's time to put an end to such silly thoughts anymore. its a dog eat dog world out there... it dawned upon me today...what if i was not who i was..what if i was someone who was so arrogant and selfish, would life be better off? since no one would be wanting to take any advantage of me nor dare to push me to my limits...at this current state of mind, yes! i would prefer to be such a person.... often enough i have told myself to always think positively..positive thinking, think positive...positivity positivity and more positivity...yet it doesnt seem to end..i always tell myself all these are mere challenges..i...

i feel like such a failure... the stress has seriously gotten into me and is killing me inside out... alot of times , ppl come and ask me, "why didnt u come and say something? or why didnt u tell us?"..but not that i dont want to tell but i dont see the need of telling what is the problem when it is really very clear. actions always speak louder than words. rather than we contemplate on the problem which is already known, why not instead think of a better solution. the phrase still rings in my head "do not give me a problem, give me a solution". that is very true! there is too much to be handled. guess i have overestimated myself. i know i can do it, all i need is time but that is the one thing which i am lacked of. i am trying to be patient, taking things one at a time but that has not work out well anymore. one thing at one time proves to be too slow. i need to take up like 10 things at one time... gosh..i really am very doubtful of my strength. i am already at my...

I love Him more each day as He does not abandon you although you may not think of Him in times of need, or may have forgotten all about Him when you are in trouble. When you give up on yourself, He does not give up on you. He knows best. I love Him more. I love you, God.

i am very sad today..extremely sad and depress...i am sad :( :( :(

With regards to my previous post, "why oh why", it finally made some sense in me.. i came to realize all along that i wasn't the unlucky one, i was the lucky one! There are things in life which are unmeasurable, things which are unseen, which are only felt in the heart and that is all that matters. i may not be bright enough to earn so much money as my others who easily get what they wanted, or pretty enough to get all the guys that they wanted, but i am lucky enough to have my faith in God! i guess it was just God's way of speaking to me...feeling down and envy (i admit) about other people's achievement and luck had made me rethink the decisions i made. but then, after attending mass, it struck me that although my life right now could be just a moderate life in terms of work, but i am blessed to have Him who truly plans it out for me....he would not disapoint, although at this time now, i am very doubtful (i apologise, God) as my plans for the weekend for which i...

why does it always have to happen? comparison, jealousy, envy..then start thinking, why are others so lucky and you aren't? did i made the wrong choice?.... its been said and done, happened and experienced.....but why...is life really that easy for others while we have to struggle so hard and now we are on the same par like them? haiz.....life is alwayz not a balanced scale, just depending on which side you are one... i guess that things always happen for a reason....i made my decision years ago, and now, i just have to face the consequences....please help me God :S

the new year started very badly for me....today is just the 4th day into the new year and i am already at my limit...things have been becoming bad to worse and i really do not know what this whole year would be for me..i am very doubtful of what is instore for me.... today has been typically bad...up to the point where i 'review' what i had done for the past one year where i was made to think i did nothing but just a gap-filler, to fill up the holes on the road... i really felt such, not exaggerating but that was how bad it felt...it wasnt a knife that i was stabbed, it was a chopper! big slash and deep.....and taking it out after that chop really made it bled..... let me explained myself here since nobody would listen to me then... it's not that i did not know what to do or how to do it, but it's just that i have no time (well,as lame as that reason may be, but that is really the truth) and since that no one wanted to take up the responsibility previously and not wanti...

The art of comparing... people just love to compare with one another, maybe it's a the human nature of a person... but i always remember the words of my father "Don't ever compare with other people, you must know where you stand!"..and indeed, those words are the key essence to who i am till this very day. i have read before too that we should not compare as it will only make us unworthy of who we are. i have to agree with this, as although i have always try not to compare with others, but somehow, at some point, you will tend to do such. comparing for a good reason would be encouraged, that is if is taken positively. this type of comparison is good as it will help us to improve for the better and to avoid bad circumstances. but if comparison it is taken the wrong way, then it will only cause hatred, jealousy and may even build up greed...and sometimes, when we tend to compare, we would actually lose out on open opportunities, jus because we compared with other people...