The Teapot's Cabin

many things had happen jus within these two days.....believe me when i say MANY!! many unexpected things happen and mostly of the negative side....my gosh!! conflict after conflict....conflict with the people around and also conflict within myself....it was realy an ordeal no one would want to be in....i was reluctant and also hesitant with myself, of whether i can handle the pressure and tension caused by this...i was feeling doubtful of my ownself...can i pull through this? will this affect myself and the people around me? but most importantly, what impact does this have towards me? i was, honestly, feeling very much alone and like as though the whole world was against me and my other friend...we both were put in such a situation, so difficult to handle, considering the consequences that comes with it....all we can do is to assure each other that we can pull through this and continuing to support each other as we go through the whole senario together... some might have ask why i wou...

Dissatisfaction....betrayal...framed.....anger....disturbed....what will this lead to? my gosh...i just don't want to imagine the consequences.....my future may be affected...but do i deserve this fully? why does the human nature has the very very bad habit of dishonesty? because of one or maybe two id**t(s), everybody is affected? aren't you ashame of yourself?? please....have mercy on the rest...we are innocent, but because of your fault, we are all blamed!!.....be very ashamed of yourself!!!!! karma is true, and i believe it in! What you have done unto others, it will be done the same to you !

I was very astonished to see the change in the weather last friday within just 1hour.... 4 .31pm: the sky was so clearly divided into two; 'black and white'..rain starting to pour 4.51pm : the sky was totally white!! its was just purely WHITE!! it was raining so so so heavy 5.26pm : the sky was back to normal again...rain stop, but still drizzled.... It was just so amazing to see how the weather changes so quickly, its as though the sky was mad at something and it showed its temper by raining so so so heavily, and then it subsided....does it ring a bell? don't we all behave like that too when something not right happens? we will sulk la, show 'long long face' la, just like how the sky was blackening at the beginning.....slowly, a clear sky, turning black and dark, just like us, slowly heating up and turning 'black' inside and sometimes it shows on our expressions.... then when we can't take it, we just 'burst' it out....either we scold/arg...

my oh my...how la? haiah.....its known as the "Mid-Semester Break", but its not like a break at all...break my legs and hands got lah, for working and walking non-stop...... so much to do but so little time..so much datelines to meet...i thought that this break from lectures and practical classes would somehow be better than usual, but i seem to be wrong... things are far worse.....more things to think and carry out....reports, assignments, thesis lab work, study for tests.... my table....with so many stuff.... my oh my...the list just go on and on...it never stops will it ever stop? is being a student such a burden after all? well...its a challenge that is meant for us at this period of our lives, nothing is easy in this world...we have to really strive till the very end, till the very last drop of blood left in the body (hahaha....sound so serious and scary)....like it or not, i just have to accept it and live with it. its just a matter of time till i really 'break'...

a day without the internet...a pro-and-con situation.... pro : i get to rest and focus on other stuf rather than the online community and all its work..and learn to be independent of the cyber world. its an opportunity to take a break from looking and staring into the computer monitor. con : i can't do most of my assignments and work as i rely almost 90% on the information online, and the best way to keep in touch wif my frens from far and near was thru the MSN chat room, although sms-ing was an easy way too, but MSN is more direct and fast. so how was it like to be without the internet for the whole day?? my gosh...i felt crippled!! its like loosing an arm or a leg oredy, bt stil haf to live with it....its a bad thing that i am so so dependent on the internet, however, in this period of time, with workloads piling and piling up non stop, i just cant live without it... i need you, my dear internet!!.... thank God for the inventors of Internet. G...

I am back at home just for a few days, but my mum shared with me a simple yet an experience so beautiful. Here's how it goes : "One evening, I (my mum la) took Max (my dog) for a walk as usual. Then I saw two puppies in front lah, playing with each other. Then sudenly as I got near to them, they were not there, instead I heard some soft faint cries nearby. I looked around and saw one of the puppies fell into a drain. The drain was next to a restaurant, so you can imagine la what's in that drain; oil, food waste, etc. I got 'geli' lah, coz i dare not touch small furry animals. Then sudenly, the mother dog of the puppy came near me, sat down and looked at me, sadly like as though it was pleading me to save her little child. I looked at it and felt so sory and in my heart, i said i must save this puppy no matter what. so i looked around and found a stick, though abit crooked wan la...then i try and 'dig' the puppy out with ca...

Over the weekend, something great was on.... DOGATHON 2008, Bukit Ekspo, UPM (10th August) A day of DOGS!! that's what you see... left, right, front, back....everywhere.. dogs, dogs and more dogs...so many different types, breeds, sizes, colour..its amazing for people to willingly bring their beloved dogs to UPM (all the way) just to have some time and some fun with their adorable pet! Apparently, it is an annual event and this year, the theme was Aerospace ...... To space and beyond...... Dogs were all dressed and groomed to their best for this day. Some even had their fur and hair dyed! I mean here not the owners but the dogs themselves!! amazing....the minute i arrive, i jus "aww, wow, wah, ohhh....." they were all just so adorable..He is so great to make them such beautiful and adorable creatures, created just so to be loved.... The Adorable creatures..... ...

Gloomy-ness entails the whole day....from the beginning of the day with work loads to an unexpected sms i got this evening....BINGUNG!!! why is today such an unlucky day? is it just plain unlucky or coincidence or was it really planned like this by Him? Please make me believe that it is Your plan and there is a rainbow at the end of it all.....i can't stand it any longer, i need to be strong, but can i? Jesus says : Forgive and forget....it is so easy to forgive but why is it so hard to forget? I'm so so so disturbed by the sms i received this evening..what will happen next? why is it so? will i ever be able to overcome this burden? .......WHY? WHY? WHY? i'm doubting myself of being able to carry on after being flooded with challenges after challenges..............and the worse one has now come...what i have been afraid of all these while, has finally surfaced! WHY?? Guide me.....help me to be strong....I really can't carry on alone......its too hard to stand alone.......

My very first blog...duno what spurred me to start one, but i just felt the time was right to just spill out whatever that has been throbbing in my head all these while...(hahaha..sound so serious)....i just love to speak about life, although it has only been 21 years and 8 months, but nevertheless, life has been such a wonderful, i shall say, and a rocky ride and landing me up where I am today! grateful? definitely because what i have gone through help built me everyday, mentally and emotionally....to be what I am today! Well..this week has also been a great week for some of my friends as they celebrate their convocation, a mode of freedom from the books and stress of tertiary education...haha...congrats to all of you...Dr. Sabrina, Gilda, Ivory, Marianne, Suzie, Amanda, Agnes and Jeffrey.. You all did great. Thumbs up! Keep it up gals, your families must be so proud of you all...I'm so glad to be able to share your joy together with your friends and families....You guyz rock!! Y...