One after another

Gosh..these few days had been so so terrible...so many things happened..again!!....i don't know if i should count myself 'lucky' or 'unlucky', because things that i do, will always be 'caught' by someone, even though im not the first who did those things.....haiah......what to do? me n my friend had always been the scape goat for people all this while....one after another.....never free from all the clutches of authority, rules and regulations...though we are NOT the first who do this kind of thing....other people have also done the same, its just that they were never caught at all...either they are just plain lucky or im just plain stupid???

i admit my fault...its a risk that i took, and i have to pay the price.....but for how long?? im speechless....things just kept happening...one after another...im so tired of being put in the dark, questioning what will happen to me n my friend?...what will befall towards us?...what are the consequences?....how long is this ordeal?.....gosh! its eating me inside out...and seriously, this is the least of the times that i would want myself to get into any trouble...i cant afford to waste anymore time on this......other things are as important to me as well...but how to focus? its nt as easy as it sounds....my lips may say that it will all be fine..but my heart is telling me otherwise...who should i listen to? gosh................one after another..........

one after another.........now i have to start from a scratch.....i hope i still have the time and energy and hype to go through this as how i used to have it....i cant find it anymore within me, im losing it......oh gosh.....its just the worse time for anything more to happen....

help me to be strong....im doubting if i can ever pull through this dark period.....its killing me....You are my only hope..........help me to stand up once again!

Comments

MasTer GreGor said…
oh my!!! did u spill any small pox viruses around?!?!? - stole them from the danger box!?!? haha
October 21, 2008 at 8:54 PM
Anonymous said…
Consolation comes from worst experiences.

I too, feel sorry for I was in that situation when that 'someone' saw us.

I hope I would be able to extend a helping hands, at least helping to P.C.fairing again?

Press the button, and say "Hey Isaac. Do you mind to...."

I would be gladly to say "I want!"
October 23, 2008 at 10:11 PM
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