The Teapot's Cabin

It is always the same.... you thought you have finally found something different, you decide to invest your time and effort, and this time your trust in it...yet, it still ends up the same...you did all that you can possibly do knowing that it is different this time around, yet it still ends up just like the rest of them before... It now comes to show that it is always not meant to be..no matter how hard we try to change the things or my perception of things, if it is not meant to be, it will not be... Dissapointing I can say, frustration I can say, heartbreak I can say.....nothing else...life just like playing around and I am not sure if this is what it takes to make me rise up again.... i can only hope, well that's all that is left anyway... so help me God. Amen.

One minute you are given everything that you have been dreaming about; your dream career, someone you can trust with everything and anything, your smooth sailing social life.... and the next minute, everything has been taken away.... imagine the anxiety, the dissapointment, the frustration, the longing, the struggle, the agony. I may be overthinking but things are seem to be heading that direction of doom.... I am only hoping to end the year on a better note...for now... nothing much to be hopeful for.... So help me God. Amen

I appear to be very actviely blogging these few days...well, all because I am very free, like literally... at work...all because I am waiting for my fate. yes, you read that right; my FATE. I am waiting for the next stage in my career which is determined by a higher authority at work...and I can't do much but just to wait...wait for a favourable result (i pray and hope, fingers crossed) how many at times our lives revolves along "waiting"? we wait and wait. we wait for results, we wait for answers, we wait for signs. all we do is just to wait.... aren't we tired of that? Often times than not, I get so tired of waiting that I take the first step to take (any) action rather than to wait...and at the end of what has been done, I still have to wait...for the other party to respond... oh dear, when will we ever stop waiting? even the season of advent teaches us to wait. and just like christmas, i hope the wait will also be worth it. Oh God. help us all. the wait ...

How hard it is to be doing the right thing? to be a disciple of God? I think I have posted something similar to this previously... but nonetheless, it got me thinking....again...about this How hard it is to help the needy? So much so that I so frequently wanted to just quit and stop taking care of the needs of the others. Why go the extra mile to help when others who are as capable too are sitting comfortably in their own homes, while I struggle my ends off just to help ensure the needy gets the minimal help that I can offer, and still demand for more..... oh God oh God, why so difficult to do your work? why so difficult to do your will? I know it is hard, it is challenging, it is layden with so many obstacles...what's worse when you know you are all on your own in this.. nobody is there to help nor guide nor support... Can I just give up heaven and not continue to do all these?

Sometimes it fascinates me how independent I can be or how I used to be. How much I can keep everything to myself for the sake of not wanting to affect others around me no matter where I am. To some this may be surprising because I always seemed like the friendly bubbly one who opens up easily to people I meet with my personality. But then, think again..how many of you really notice that you know nothing much of my personal life? That's because I always like to keep it to myself. Nothing fascinating as others. I would rather be someone's listening ear than to be listened to to all my babbles and irritations and annoyance. That's how life has always been. For a very very long time... it is interesting to see how much I know about others, intimately even for some, but very little is made known of myself to others... Not that I am being selfish, of just wanting to know about others while keeping my own life a secret that only I will take to my grave, but its just people ne...

Focus on what value a person can bring I came across this phrase in an article and it immediately caught my attention. These 8 words speaks volume and can be relatable in so many ways. It can be looked at two ways. Either we are the "person" or literally seeing it as "another person". The latter would relate to how we look at the people around us. How we view the people that we work with, the people we talk to, the people we spend time with or even our own loved ones, our families. Do we see beyond who they are as a person? do we really value what and who they are as a person? Think about it. Recently I experienced a hiccup in my career, and a few days after that difficult ordeal, i came across that article and it seemed as if the article was written for me. How often do we always strive to be perfect and in that way, try to be the correct at all times...so much so that when bump happens, it hit us hard because we were so focussed on the perfectness that we fo...

What is your measurement of being successful? How can you finally say that you have succeed in life? What do you based your conclusion / judgement upon? Think about it. we always say we want to be successful in life...but to what extend?  what are your criterias of a successful person? Rich? High position in the company? Having a stable family? For me....I can proudly say I am successful when I am able to inspire and motivate others through the things that I do and the things that I believe in. When that happens, I am happy to say "I have made it in life"! We are always doing what we are doing. our job, the friends that we meet up, the family members that we spend time with. But do we ever realize the impact we have on all these? I always believe that whatever you do, do it with sincerity. not wanting for rewards or something in return, but just to do what you are supposed to do with a sincere honest heart, and to the best of your abilities. Even to help and to teach ...

Sometimes, the only way you can help yourself is by helping others. True? I let you figure it out in your own way. That is certainly true, for me. As per my previous post on loneliness, it is not easy to surpass that lonesome feeling overnight. It takes much more than just "time will heal" or "you will get over it over the next few days". Sometimes, action speaks louder than words, and that is applicable to such situation / condition. Being lonely is a feeling. Not to be denied nor brushed off, but better to be dealt with. to act upon it. The easiest way is to always find a distraction. Don't get me wrong that a distraction is to pull you away from the reality of your loneliness but rather allowing yourself to be exposed to something to help you gain insight or new perspective of your own situation / condition. Hence, the first line states just about that. When you have done all that you can possibly do to fight the loneliness within, try and switch the ...

How lonely can a person be? Have you ever wondered that? The feeling of being alone, without anyone whom you can talk to..is just so painful.. and worse still when you have to pretend things are okay on the outside, yet deep inside how crushed and broken you are feeling inside.... you are all alone to face the demons within...the deep pain and longing for someone to be there.... I duno what else deeemed to be worst anymore... only time will heal...or will it ever heal... So help me God.