The Teapot's Cabin

Frustration. Disappointments. Cluelessness. aarrrgggghhhh!!! All these are eating me inside out. i thought i can handle it all, but i guess i was wrong. things i thought were looking better but eventually brought more problems and questions again!!! my oh my...it will never end and will continue haunting me till...i duno wen.....gosh!!! Things which i had been avoiding could not be hidden anymore...sooner or later, i will have to face it...so why not now? better for me to face it now rather than later, just a matter of time....gosh!! im filled with anxiety all over...so much thoughts and questions running through my head lately, which led me to headaches too..........*sigh* i need to make a decision quick or else more consequences will i have to bear in later times..time is running out...gosh oh gosh...i hope i can make it this time...its the hardest thing that i have ever been through and im really doubting myself this time....its costing me alot, alot of things are at stake at this p...

a breath of fresh air. finally i can breathe again...i survived and vowed to come back stronger this time. nothing can stop me now...no more mistakes or ignorance or negligence that can threathen my chance this time around...thanks for the support. i know You were with me. Help me to carry on.....~peace

*fingers crossed* going to do something quite big today. Hope it turns out well. God be with us

~with reference to the previous post (haha...it sounds just like a formal letter opening)...i did mention on my nature of not showing my true (negative) emotions....which actually led to something i just realized recently..which is understanding. No one understands me or rather know me really well...no matter it is my family nor my closest friends...except for Him above, who knows me thoroughly more than I even know myself.... Understanding is an essential ingredient in a relationship of two persons or more. i'm not referring to just a normal boy-girl relationship, but relationships of all forms; parents-children, sibling-sibling, friend-friend, teacher-student, housemates-housemates, etc. it all requires a little bit of understanding on either parties. i really emphasis understanding here and is something i believe, is very important in everyone's life. hehe...i guess for those who followed up my blog, you can noticed that i do blog afew times on this. the most famous or mos...

How do we tackle our emotions? Do we actually sit down and ponder of the emotions we are feeling at a particular moment, identify it and 'play' with it? Or are we always in a dilemma like this man in the picture, not knowing how to express our emotions, in the hopes that others may understand how we actually feel? As the picture shows, each emotions is heading in a different direction, because (common sense) that each emotion will have different consequences on us, and also towards the people we direct it to. how we portray and express our feelings to others will affect the interaction with them, which could either 'build' the relationship or 'jeopardize' the relationship altogether. Hence, I'm sure many people would have been in this situation like this man is...not knowing what emotions or feelings to portray in response to other people...definitely, this is not easy as it is shown in the picture, where the distances are clearly written out and the directi...

what a sudden change of mind and heart compared to the day. a night filled with anguish, tears and sadness. disapointments sink in, loneliness sinks even deeper... emptyness and hurt..what a painful blend ...however, i can't seem to find the root of all these feelings...it may sound absurd, but i don't know the real reason for all these...the feelings just sudenlly became stronger and stronger...probably after months n months of keeping them all and swallowing them hard, i guess my heart and being just can't take it any longer and everything just burst right out.... its just such an empty night..i just felt like there is nothing within me; N.O.T.H.I.N.G...but pain and suffering..........i hope i can pull through this ordeal..... this phrase, from the bible, kept me going....please help me to be strong.. Mary's Song of Praise My heart praises the Lord my soul is glad because of God my saviour, for He has remembered me, His lowly servant! From now on all people will ca...

A beautiful message worth sharing : The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor. The one who kneels to the Lord, can stand up to anything

Why do we need to follow others? Is it so difficult if we were to live alone and in our own way? Must we always have a clique or a ‘gang’ of our own to feel belong in today’s world? And if there is a clique or a ‘gang’, must we actually change our ways and our own identity just so to fit into the group and not be treated as an outcast? Can’t we just stick to our own style and identity, and still feel ‘fit’ in that ‘gang’? So many questions…so many, so so many…..but do we have the answer…something prompted me to question myself this….(sorry ah, a bit too personal for me to describe what here)….do you feel like this as well? And don’t you feel the ‘pinch’ to really change and try to fit into a group? Is it a self-willingness to do so or force to do so just to fit into that gang? ….so many questions.. but where can I find the answer? Well I think it is all within……. I remember a friend once told me this : “don’t bother explaining yourself to others for those who know u and like u wont bot...

I got to learn to say NO!! This is just a two-letter word but yet, it is just so hard for me to use it…and due to my ‘stupidity’(you may say it), it got me into trouble… a lot of trouble! I actually didn’t realize the real cause of the trouble(s) that I’ve gone through till my mum told me that…because it is really really difficult for me to say NO! Those who knew me well, may realize this…because I really have a bad habit (yeah, I considered it bad now) to be obliging to people, even though I am to suffer or to go through a lot of trouble….WHY, you may ask…. I don’t know….its just my nature…. I don’t like questioning people; They ask me for help, I say YES! They tell me they need help, I say YES! They call me for help, I say YES! They choose me to help them, I say YES! They look for me for help, I say YES! *Sigh*….looking back, it can be counted the number of times ‘NO’ came out of me... It is really a part of me that I don’t r...

For the past few months, I have been learning quite a lot about people’s personality and how they adapt to the environment around them. And it does indeed, been quite an interesting ride, as I really get to know of various types of people and therefore, learn to accept them as who they are. I feel that it is really important because, when we actually take the initiative to learn about a person, we will tend to understand them better. Hence, we shall not treat or rather categorized them as ‘weird’ or ‘crazy’ just because they are not the norm or in easier word, just not like us. Isn’t it funny? we always feel that people who are not like us in actions or thinking, are weird? don’t you think that this won’t happen vice versa, whereby they, in their thinking, think that we are weird then? Hahaha…then it will be two individuals talking to each other, but calling each other weird just because they are different to their own way? Are we so normal?.... It is true, we humans, always think that...

Phew.....two weeks of anxiety...finally over....relief? definitely, but not for long.....things have to go back to normal...meaning work has to continue, and even more now....gosh! hope i can finish it up soon....hmmm......will be back for more post people.... p/s: so happy to finally get to go online again!! yay!!!

wah been ages since i last blogged.....well many reasons to it...but the main reason was : I WAS OUT OF THE INTERNET!! huhuhu.....didnt get to be online lately....due to exams as well as to the inconvenience of looking for a wifi spot...wakaka... anyhow, im just dropping by here to just keep my blog alive...haha.... alot of things happened.. ALOT man!!.. but then,no time for me to blog it out here and now...as im rushing for time right now....lol..will do soon..anyhow...all the best for those who are still in their exams (which includes me...hehe)...take care and constantly pray for His grace.....~adios