It's been three months since my last post.... so fast time flies..... Well, i wouldn't want to speak about what happened over the past three months.. but rather speak something very randomly that is bonggling the mind.. How often do we do our best in whatever tasks that is given, but the credit still goes to someone else? as much as we choose to ignore it, the dust is never easy to be bitten... the effort and time to help, and yet, those who were suppose to do it, choose to ignore it, while i become the scape goat for all the nonsense that wasn't even mine in the first place. it is really unfairness to its maxmum. and as much as it is against my life principle to be brought down so easily, but i just could not do much, knowing that i am legally bound to what is being contracted to me.. haizzz..life and all its obstacles... as much as i hope to persevere through all these, as much as i hope to leave as well... So much that i have gone through the past 9 years, and ne...
Do you know what is the no1 killer in the world? No its not drugs, alcohol abuse nor road accidents. The No 1 killer in the world is..... LONELINESS How many of you are honest enough to admit that you are a very lonely person deep within, amidst all the friends and families around you... Those who knows me personally, will think that I am the opposite of loneliness, but to tell you the truth, i am indeed lonely. Thus, it is truly real when we see how many suicidal cases of top celebrities, who have everything in the world, yet suffer from depression all because they were lonely. I can totally relate to that. Loneliness is not about the physical but rather the emotions and mental state of mind. Yes, i have friends, numerous in fact, and a family who everyone knows them to be fun loving.. but deep down, i can totally admit openly, nobody cares about me as a person... People are so often confused with...
Mixed feelings ...that's how i have been feeling lately..things came and go...causing perturbation to the mind...confusion, distraction, unsure of what to do...or even worse, dont know how to feel; dont know how to even portray the right emotions..(hahaha this brings back memories of what i learnt in my personality class....) things have been happening around me, thankfully, not directly to me lah...but somehow, indirectly, it affected me to a certain extend as well Some of my friends were in trouble lately, big trouble i shall say...i feel so bad for them, but somehow i just can't help much, because there is nothing much that i can help to solve it....all i can do is just to lend my ear to them, to be a platform for them to let things out of their shell...because speaking from experience, it is certainly very hard to just keep everything to oneself...slowly it will cause the body and mind to rot...hehe...too exaggerating pulak...hahahahaha .. anyhow, it was a lesson not just f...
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