The Teapot's Cabin

I thought the year would end smoothly...however a news i received this evening shattered every dream i had, every wish i had, every hopes i had...i lose someone so dear to me this very evening, someone so close to me.... i lose my dog this evening...his battle with his sickness was lost...i was shock with the news...everyone knew that he is getting old, and is frequently getting his seizure lately, but none of us expected him to leave us so fast..... needless to say, i cried and cried and cried so much..my eldest sis called me, we both wept on the phone, my second sis called me, we both wept on the phone too, i called my mum, and we both wept together on the phone too....i wept too; a whole box of tissue to be precise (really, not bluffing, i still keep the empty box if u wan proof).....he has been part of the family for 10 years, he was so close to be celebrating his 11 birthday, just 11 days away...but i guess, his time is up my mum told me of how he struggled in the morning from a s...

Time just flies so fast....a month's semester break just came and went, just like that with a snap of the finger.....a month's break it was, but it never was a break for me...things were just as it is, everyday was filled with work, work and more work....back and forth i travelled to the lab, an hour and a half journey, left the house before the sun rises and went back home after the sun sets....as my sister told me, "you are more busy than those who are working"....hahahaha....that is true...weekends were never a break either, everyday was being used up to catch up on my work, rushing for datelines which are closer and closer each day.....it is as tiring as it sounds...apart from the work load, the tension and pressure was also a contributing factor that affected me in various ways...i was almost at the verge of quitting it all, just giving up everything...however, something within me refuses to let go, something kept me hanging on..and i sure know that He has someth...

It was a celebration indeed...the birthday of Jesus...a day in which the whole world knows it as Christmas! a day of giving and receiving presents, a day filled with sales here and there...but most importantly, a day to be together with our loved ones to celebrate the coming of our saviour into this world.... Christmas is just the best time of the year....an occasion which i always look forward to every year..more for the presents, frankly...hahaha..but that was years ago....however, as i grew up i began to realize that its not just merely the presents i was looking forward to, its more of the togetherness that i really really anticipate...to be together with our loved ones; our families.. As what i have blogged a few days ago, how i dreaded the whole thing for the first time this year....i guess it actually turned out to be something good for me..because of those feelings that i had a few weeks earlier, i tend to cherish and treasure this year's Christmas even more...when the day...

A BLESSED CHRISTMAS TO ALL im so happy today......things turned for the better....will be back to blog......Blessed to God Most High HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS

i am sitting right now in front of the christmas tree at home and wondering.....what is christmas to me this year? what are the things that cause me to look forward to it, this very year?? i used to have the answers to these questions....but sadly, this year...i have none! and i have to admit it, that it is a 'sad case' if one does not have the mood to celebrate it, the 'christmas mood' to be precise.... yes, christmas is always the time to celebrate the birth of our Saviour, our Master, our King, our Friend...and it is certainly the best time to be with our loved ones, our families especially...its a time of giving and receiving, whether its presents or just a simple greeting of 'Merry Christmas'.. its a time to share and spread the joy with one another...its a time of welcoming something precious or rather a new beginning... but sad to say, i can't feel the spirit of christmas this year....there isn't much that i look forward to this year, though im e...

how can things go further wrong? even a short break doesnt help much....things just kept bugging and bugging me continuously....anxiety, stress, tension, pressure, regrets....and to top it all, i've now fallen sick...what a 'good' way to end the year......gosh :-S

"Love is not finding someone to live with , It's finding someone you can't live without. " - Fr. Alvin - This was a quote from Fr. Alvin's homily during today's sunset mass, and it captured me right on the spot. It is such a beautiful quote and it certainly brings a very deep meaning altogether. and in true life, undeniable, it is not easy to find someone who you can't live without...it takes commitment, connection, chemistry and most importantly, love. well, after mass...(maybe its the Holy Spirit's work), we headed for a movie, Twilight it was really a wonderful movie that shows how great love is..it really pictures the true meaning of love, just like the quote mentioned above..and the story is just being told in such a different but beautiful manner...as what is written in the poster, "when you can live forever. what do you live for?" a question worth pondering.... hmm.....what would i actually do then?? will i take back or change anythin...

exhaution. tiredness.....oh my goodness...lately, my days has been so filled up with 'work' and 'travelling'.. its really so tired to just be waiting for ...jeng jeng jeng..... The Bus! though it is so, but i cant deny the fact that it is very convenient to travel here and there, around the city...and everyday has been an interesting journey, filled with the diversity of people i meet on the bus, observing their actions and the way they comunicate...there is always a story to tell of my journey on this particular vehicle...however so, im really really physically exhauted to blog about it now.....~faint~

i've learnt in one of my classes that it is not encouraging and even not healthy to keep our feelings and problem to ourself..because in long term, it may have an effect on our health and our mind too...which at first i regard it as a 'myth' or just something which i would discard and disagree why so?? because that's how i've been living my life...keeping everything to myself'; my anger, my dissapointments, my frustrations, my irritations,etc....just about everything..except for the positive ones which i would be happy to share with others....but that's just me...and certainly, it doesn't really bother me that much, although at some point, it does is a painful pill to swallow.. however, lately, i would want to agree with what i learnt earlier. the pressure and stress that i have been through lately is seriously something that i could not handle anymore. too much anxiety and lack of understanding is seriously eating me inside out and it was really costin...

Frustration. Disappointments. Cluelessness. aarrrgggghhhh!!! All these are eating me inside out. i thought i can handle it all, but i guess i was wrong. things i thought were looking better but eventually brought more problems and questions again!!! my oh my...it will never end and will continue haunting me till...i duno wen.....gosh!!! Things which i had been avoiding could not be hidden anymore...sooner or later, i will have to face it...so why not now? better for me to face it now rather than later, just a matter of time....gosh!! im filled with anxiety all over...so much thoughts and questions running through my head lately, which led me to headaches too..........*sigh* i need to make a decision quick or else more consequences will i have to bear in later times..time is running out...gosh oh gosh...i hope i can make it this time...its the hardest thing that i have ever been through and im really doubting myself this time....its costing me alot, alot of things are at stake at this p...

a breath of fresh air. finally i can breathe again...i survived and vowed to come back stronger this time. nothing can stop me now...no more mistakes or ignorance or negligence that can threathen my chance this time around...thanks for the support. i know You were with me. Help me to carry on.....~peace

*fingers crossed* going to do something quite big today. Hope it turns out well. God be with us

~with reference to the previous post (haha...it sounds just like a formal letter opening)...i did mention on my nature of not showing my true (negative) emotions....which actually led to something i just realized recently..which is understanding. No one understands me or rather know me really well...no matter it is my family nor my closest friends...except for Him above, who knows me thoroughly more than I even know myself.... Understanding is an essential ingredient in a relationship of two persons or more. i'm not referring to just a normal boy-girl relationship, but relationships of all forms; parents-children, sibling-sibling, friend-friend, teacher-student, housemates-housemates, etc. it all requires a little bit of understanding on either parties. i really emphasis understanding here and is something i believe, is very important in everyone's life. hehe...i guess for those who followed up my blog, you can noticed that i do blog afew times on this. the most famous or mos...

How do we tackle our emotions? Do we actually sit down and ponder of the emotions we are feeling at a particular moment, identify it and 'play' with it? Or are we always in a dilemma like this man in the picture, not knowing how to express our emotions, in the hopes that others may understand how we actually feel? As the picture shows, each emotions is heading in a different direction, because (common sense) that each emotion will have different consequences on us, and also towards the people we direct it to. how we portray and express our feelings to others will affect the interaction with them, which could either 'build' the relationship or 'jeopardize' the relationship altogether. Hence, I'm sure many people would have been in this situation like this man is...not knowing what emotions or feelings to portray in response to other people...definitely, this is not easy as it is shown in the picture, where the distances are clearly written out and the directi...

what a sudden change of mind and heart compared to the day. a night filled with anguish, tears and sadness. disapointments sink in, loneliness sinks even deeper... emptyness and hurt..what a painful blend ...however, i can't seem to find the root of all these feelings...it may sound absurd, but i don't know the real reason for all these...the feelings just sudenlly became stronger and stronger...probably after months n months of keeping them all and swallowing them hard, i guess my heart and being just can't take it any longer and everything just burst right out.... its just such an empty night..i just felt like there is nothing within me; N.O.T.H.I.N.G...but pain and suffering..........i hope i can pull through this ordeal..... this phrase, from the bible, kept me going....please help me to be strong.. Mary's Song of Praise My heart praises the Lord my soul is glad because of God my saviour, for He has remembered me, His lowly servant! From now on all people will ca...

A beautiful message worth sharing : The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor. The one who kneels to the Lord, can stand up to anything

Why do we need to follow others? Is it so difficult if we were to live alone and in our own way? Must we always have a clique or a ‘gang’ of our own to feel belong in today’s world? And if there is a clique or a ‘gang’, must we actually change our ways and our own identity just so to fit into the group and not be treated as an outcast? Can’t we just stick to our own style and identity, and still feel ‘fit’ in that ‘gang’? So many questions…so many, so so many…..but do we have the answer…something prompted me to question myself this….(sorry ah, a bit too personal for me to describe what here)….do you feel like this as well? And don’t you feel the ‘pinch’ to really change and try to fit into a group? Is it a self-willingness to do so or force to do so just to fit into that gang? ….so many questions.. but where can I find the answer? Well I think it is all within……. I remember a friend once told me this : “don’t bother explaining yourself to others for those who know u and like u wont bot...

I got to learn to say NO!! This is just a two-letter word but yet, it is just so hard for me to use it…and due to my ‘stupidity’(you may say it), it got me into trouble… a lot of trouble! I actually didn’t realize the real cause of the trouble(s) that I’ve gone through till my mum told me that…because it is really really difficult for me to say NO! Those who knew me well, may realize this…because I really have a bad habit (yeah, I considered it bad now) to be obliging to people, even though I am to suffer or to go through a lot of trouble….WHY, you may ask…. I don’t know….its just my nature…. I don’t like questioning people; They ask me for help, I say YES! They tell me they need help, I say YES! They call me for help, I say YES! They choose me to help them, I say YES! They look for me for help, I say YES! *Sigh*….looking back, it can be counted the number of times ‘NO’ came out of me... It is really a part of me that I don’t r...

For the past few months, I have been learning quite a lot about people’s personality and how they adapt to the environment around them. And it does indeed, been quite an interesting ride, as I really get to know of various types of people and therefore, learn to accept them as who they are. I feel that it is really important because, when we actually take the initiative to learn about a person, we will tend to understand them better. Hence, we shall not treat or rather categorized them as ‘weird’ or ‘crazy’ just because they are not the norm or in easier word, just not like us. Isn’t it funny? we always feel that people who are not like us in actions or thinking, are weird? don’t you think that this won’t happen vice versa, whereby they, in their thinking, think that we are weird then? Hahaha…then it will be two individuals talking to each other, but calling each other weird just because they are different to their own way? Are we so normal?.... It is true, we humans, always think that...

Phew.....two weeks of anxiety...finally over....relief? definitely, but not for long.....things have to go back to normal...meaning work has to continue, and even more now....gosh! hope i can finish it up soon....hmmm......will be back for more post people.... p/s: so happy to finally get to go online again!! yay!!!

wah been ages since i last blogged.....well many reasons to it...but the main reason was : I WAS OUT OF THE INTERNET!! huhuhu.....didnt get to be online lately....due to exams as well as to the inconvenience of looking for a wifi spot...wakaka... anyhow, im just dropping by here to just keep my blog alive...haha.... alot of things happened.. ALOT man!!.. but then,no time for me to blog it out here and now...as im rushing for time right now....lol..will do soon..anyhow...all the best for those who are still in their exams (which includes me...hehe)...take care and constantly pray for His grace.....~adios

Honour thy father and thy mother This is one of the most important commanmends given to us from above. Our parents are just the greatest gift of all from above. it is through them that we have life, we are brought into this world, we are where we are today and we are who we are today. they mould us, teach us, guide us, etc. no matter whatever form we end up to be, how 'bad-shaped' we end up, how ill-mannered or how sinful we are, one thing is for sure, they will still love us unconditionally. Eventhough at times our parents may nag us, or criticize us, or the most famous one : giving long-winded lectures...however so, they are just the persons that we can always cling on to whenever the whole world is against us. they will always be ready to open their arms, and accept us lovingly and forgivingly whenever we go back home, without thinking of whatever past sins or wrong doings that we had committed...their love and trust surpasses all... all their nagging and lectures were ju...

Empty....empty..empty......duno why or how or when this feeling came about....i just felt empty... no mood or drive at all to do anything..i jus stare straight into my monitor screen and my fingers just type aimlessly (sounds so sad isnt it?....lol) ...haiah....dunoler.....its just so empty.....its not the surroundings of where i am, but its just within me....there is nothing....a deep sense of emptiness...duno its a good thing or a bad thing....gosh....:-S

the human is such a beautiful creature, created by God..but somehow, the ugly nature of that human tends to pollute the beauty of this creation...and my oh my...i just can't stand pretentious people!! Goodness gracious....why must you people pretend to be who you are not? is it so important that we have to really look and act like so "goody-goody" in front of other people just so that they may think that you are the best and most sophisticated people on earth? ... wah...memang tak boleh tahan people who are like that....im not sure bout other people's thinking, but to me (sorry, this may sound pretty harsh...but this is my opinion), they are just hypocrites ... trying to be someone they are not just so that they can be in the good book of that particular person they are trying to impress.....it does not just apply to the working world, where you have to impress your boss and so forth, however, in just normal friendships and relationships, this kind of thing too occur...

A beautiful message from an email i received : When someone tells you that you can't do something... Look around Consider all options then GO for it! Use all the things GOD gave you! Be creative! In the end, you will succeed and prove them wrong! Always remember : 'Nothing is impossible, if your heart is willing'

i was just browsing through my pictures and was just reminiscing those good old memories that just light up my day.....they just got me laughing when looking at those pictures...remembering those fun times, joking, 'crapping',making fun of one another, etc......lol..... Kathleen's post-birthday dinner gathering with suit yan...looking so happily at the food served The food that we all ordered....yummy The class field visit to Malaysia Milk Sdn. Bhd. (Vitagen and Marigold production house) haha....before entering the factory...everyone had to put on their 'turbans' we love our tummy....and "Miss Rani"(the one squatting) acting macho....lol.... The Microbial Annual Class Trip cum Hari Raya Gathering at Sg. Gabai, Hulu Langat The microbe girls before the hike to the desired spot.... On the way up the hill....took a break and took a picture too...lol....look at our tired faces... Filling our tummies before we all get wet...so much food...lol picture time at t...

Gosh..these few days had been so so terrible...so many things happened..again!!....i don't know if i should count myself 'lucky' or 'unlucky', because things that i do, will always be 'caught' by someone, even though im not the first who did those things.....haiah......what to do? me n my friend had always been the scape goat for people all this while.... one after another .....never free from all the clutches of authority, rules and regulations...though we are NOT the first who do this kind of thing....other people have also done the same, its just that they were never caught at all...either they are just plain lucky or im just plain stupid??? i admit my fault...its a risk that i took, and i have to pay the price.....but for how long?? im speechless....things just kept happening... one after another ...im so tired of being put in the dark, questioning what will happen to me n my friend?...what will befall towards us?...what are the consequences?....how lon...

something worth sharing which i got from a forwarded email : 101% From a strictly mathematical viewpoint: What Equals 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been in situations where someone wants you to GIVE OVER 100%. How about ACHIEVING 101%? What equals 100% in life? Here's a little mathematical formula that might help answer these questions: If: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z Is represented as: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26. If: H-A-R-D-W-O- R- K 8+1+18+4+23+ 15+18+11 = 98% And: K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E 11+14+15+23+ 12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96% But: A-T-T-I-T-U- D-E 1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100% THEN, look how far the love of God will take you: L-O-V-E-O-F- G-O-D 12+15+22+5+15+ 6+7+15+4 = 101% Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that: While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get y...

i followed my lecturer today to her church, True Jesus Church at Jalan Templer. she was asking me and my coursemates to follow her there since the afternoon, so we gave in to her...i admit, i was doubtful at first because i don't really want to engage in religious stuff other than my own religion, but part of me would want to discover other religions and see how different they are from my own... after persuading my coursemates to come along, we finally gathered together (5 of us in total) and waited for our lecturer to come pick us up, as she had told us too. we were all anxious, worried of what to expect, thinking of how to interact with our lecturer along the journey there, etc. its such a funny situation among us....then she arrived!! zoom...came a red Honda City!..and we headed off.... we arrived at the place after about 20 minutes journey . The church was a small, little, nice and comfy, air-conditioned church, with pews and a raised platform with what looks like an altar. t...

Karma kArma kaRMA....haiah...why must it happen? why must it be so? our whole life is forever revolving around karma..unbelievable? but it is true...so much things that have proven the occurence of karma in my very own life and the people around me...but i still repeat it....ish....why la? haiah....i've learnt, to never say anything if i don't know what to say, because it will just come back to you and haunt you even more........haiah....karma, why can't you just leave me? why must you always be a part of my life? .....adui.....*sigh*....fingers crossed :-S

SaTurDay : 11th OcTobEr The weekend...started off on a very good thing...what could be better than food!! haha...carol and kean ni took me for a dim sum buffet!! woo hoo..i repeat, it is a Dim Sum Buffet at Opulent Court of Pearl International Hotel. it is only available on Fridays (11.30am-2pm) and Saturdays - Sundays and Public Holidays (9am-2pm), for rm 27.80 nett per person (drinks not included, though)....hehe...tengah promoting pulak...hehe.... the dim sum was good..there were alot of varieties, 80 to be exact, which includes cheese baked mussels, baby octopus, egg tarts, salad prawns, prawn dumplings (har kau), meat dumplings (siew mai), congee, chee cheong fun, desserts and many many more....hmm...listing down aso makes my tummy grumble oredy... hehe...its just good food, and i recommend you to go and try them out...and of course, we ate and ate and ate till we really drop...hehe...just continue to feed ourselves with the dim sum and desserts, one after another....we sat there...

Look at what i just witnessed! hehe... eyes wide open....notice the fish bones in the second shoe?? i was speechless when i saw this. the cat was eating right out of a shoe!! goodness!! it happen to my floormate's shoes....at first i was feeling 'geli' to see...then it became a sympathy feeling towards the owner of the shoe..but soon, it became funny..hahahaha... the cat was just so innocent..when i went nearer to capture these pictures, it just look at me with its big round eyes, "miaow" a few times at me, then continue to do what it was doing...it is just such an innocent creature...without knowing right or wrong, all it wants was to have its food and nothing else...not knowing that it is a shoe or bothering anything around it..it just continue to have its meal, fulfilling its needs...janji perut kenyang! bolehlah..hehe cats were always roaming around on my floor's corridor; and even once, there was a cat that sneaked into my room and shocked both me and my ...